yeah!

hehe

hello! i'm shifting house pretty soon, everything's messy and packed and everyone's stressed! except me! i'm sitting at my comp hehe. i've nothing much to pack!

and holiday homework is just super sian! it's never ending! oh gosh! WHY WHY WHY!

but these past 2 nights i've been having fun trying to learn some korean. learned some basic conversational korean stuff, so you can approach me i'll show off! HEHE! but there's lots more to learn i cant seem to remember everything! and it's hard to read the korean words, i have to decode them slowly into letters!

but guess what? my korean name is...*drum roll*

SAN YOUNG SHING!

and here's a korean writing for it!
















this is so fun!

rain down

it's been raining for 2 full days already! when will it stop!

boos!

camp's over! xmas youth svc's over! soon xmas going to be over then 2006 is going to be over and hello to 2007HELLAsCRAPmorehomeworkHELLAsCRAP! yes 2007 is so going to be hell for me! As! i cant cope with J1 work now and u want me to sit for As? hahaha! but it's the starting, i have faith by 3rd term i'll know most of the stuff! c'mon! 3As 1B! can do it!

guess what? i'm not even 50% through my homework! i'm so dead, just dont feel like doing la...

but nvm! this christmas is going to be great! whooh hooh! end dec going to get more new stuff! it's going to be a fruitful 2007! new additions, new stuff, more things! :D

what things? dont tell!

busy busy busy!

i'm super busy these 2 weeks. camp is in 2 days' time and xmas service in 1 week's time! still havent done much homework, i dont really feel like doing. haiz...i hate homework.

i'm embarking on a saving money scheme. aiming to save up $340 by the start of next year. possible? dont ask me man. i'm cutting down on food, taxi, and movies. havent been watching movies, the last one was prestige. that's super long ago!

sad sad sad. i need more money! :(

bye!

back!

i'm back from china! went to GZ and HK! the things in GZ are super cheap man! super super cheap! if you think thailand is cheap, go china. u get cheap stuff and better quality!

boughts lots and lots of clothes. so many i cant list them out. all for less than $500 i think. but lots of stuff. what to do? labour and production is freaking cheap there! so many ppl argh!

bought some nice jacket outfits, but i'm afraid too hot then cannot wear sia. crap man! last thing i want to be is a crazy looking homeless man drenched in his own sweat! yucks.

but their nice, cant deny my good taste! :D hehe...

and on the way home in a taxi, i swear i was freaking pissed when i reached home. WHY? THE DAMNED TAXI DRIVER DIDNT HELP ME CARRY MY BAGGAGE! ok at the airport, he just stood there, arms folded ARMS FOLDED! ok lah, maybe he dont want spoil my stuff. BUT HELLO? HELP HERE?

not that bad, reached home, paid money, expected him to get out of the taxi to help unload baggage, BUT WAT HE JUST SAT IN THE TAXI NEVER SAY THANK YOU AND NEVER BOTHERED TO GET HIS CANDY SKINNY ASS OUT OF HIS SEAT TO HELP ME UNLOAD! what kind of crap service in singapore? he ought to be fired! i should have taken down his name and lodged a complain! what a mailto:!@#^%!#%^&%!(@^!~^%^$(&@
hahaha. but seriously, all my life i've never encountered such a bo chap useless unhelpful taxi driver! especially one that sends ppl from the airport! i mean, they're supposed to help you carry ur bags out. and not to mention help me because i was alone struggling with 2 heavy bags and a guitar! he didnt even ask "do you need help?" DAMN YOU MAN! :@
hope someone else encounters him and gets him fired! super angry! what rubbish man! sickening...

ok sorry this may seem very unbiblical but i really cant stand such ppl! it's not often i get very angry like this. he should thank God i didnt yell at him!

anyway, bought something from HK too! a telecaster! like finally? after how many months!


and china blocked blogspot so i couldnt access blogs for the whole weeek!

:(

havent been posting much! been real busy, going to get busier!

going china this wed, also dropping at HK! WHOOH! so cool! HK! never been there before! great time of eating, shopping and doing piggy things!

ok!

ok as promised, here are the pics! hopefully they appear!






i cut my hair too!

spas

today is spastic day! took lots of pics! went to toys r us to play! LOL!

feels like i'm 7 then. but i didnt use to have much toys when i was young. toys r us definitely wasnt a scene from a memory. and the toys nowadays are so ex. kids these days, sigh...

ok what the...the uploading of pics stopped!

ok it doesnt work now. shall upload tmr.

simon ephraim

whooh! i'm officially married to Christ! i'm now called

SIMON EPHRAIM TAN YONG SHENG

wat a mouth full! but it was really exciting today. although this decision was rather last minute, i still thank God for it! at least i knew i'm ready!

so i played for adults service today. oh man the atmosphere is really really different from the youth. very scary, very solemn. but the ppl are still praising and worshipping the king. yup. cool man. i bet the service was an eye opener to them. new stuff, youth incorporated. IT FEELS GREAT TO BE YOUNG!

ok so i admit i was dozing off in sermon. not because pastor ben is boring. i love his sermons, full of conviction and meaning. i fall asleep because i always do, when i'm on duty. sure fall asleep. oh man now coffee doesnt work!

baptism pics! only got 2 from my phone

baptism

yay going for water bap this sunday! still deciding on my name though. the registration was soo last minute. shall work on my testimony soon.

sorry!

sorry i never blog for 11 days! been busy with PW and stuff...
anyway i took lots of pics with my phone!















top left: our noticeboard for tkd! i'm proud of it!
top right: guys night out at cine e2max!
bottom left: our cute little tkd toy!
bottom right: free milo whooh!

openhouse was sian but quite cool because i played a prominent role in doing the sound! :D and i'm so happy to see our batch putting up a good show! tkd rocks! and kicks! but i ended up sleeping during the long long break hehe

we wanted to watch stay alive, on a friday night. but we realised that we should have bought tickets way earlier because the tickets were sold out when we were there like 1/2hour before. so we ended up playing some xbox and lan of 5 comps in e2max. reasonable price i must say.

ytd's service was great! everyone improved after last week's evaluation! i must say the crowd was very excited and God visited and gave us surprises again! hehe. after service we went to esplanade. luckily i went with them, or i would have missed this super cool and zai jazz band! oh man they're sooo damn pro! jazz is sooo hard to play and they can do it well! whooh inspiration inspiration! hehe

well that's it! holidays are coming, and i need to study hard. got a freaking SEEEC (see ethan chong) for my overall. i cant complain much because i was sooo close to retaining but God's grace saw me through! and to all those that didnt do too well: dont worry too much, there's still As, the final mark. just work harder next year! we can do it!

yup ok bye!

fun fun fun!

whooh! today went to watch Rob-b-hood at PS with ck, rob, ivan, toon, yuting and yingchern.
it's damn nice show! so funny and the BABY IS SOOOOOOOO CUTE LAH! makes me want to have kids next time! super cute! the eyes so huge and so smiley! hahaha

here some pics with my new phone!





















and sorry i just had to take a pic of that balding guy in front of us! hahaha! took it secretly! imagine myself being like that 40 years down the road! but he isnt that old. 40+ i think?

and the last pic i drew it when i was bored. reminds me of someone! so cute! :D

freedom!

yay exams are over! wat's to come, i'm very afraid and shall not elaborate.

anyway, just got a new phone! sony ericsson 750i! it's still charging so havent explore yet :(

finally, got a good phone (but rather old model) that can take pics and upload to come. well i'm simple person, hence simpleone89, so i shant need a complex phone. can sms and call and take pix can liao! :)

2 more days

2 more days to the start of promos. i'm not that worried, i'm looking forward to it, and get this whole thing over and done with.

here's my revision plan:

sunday night: i shall finish up bio and vectors by tonight.
monday: study econs, memorise everything, draw graphs, read tutorials, and look thru GP
tuesday night: start memorising periodicity and atomic structure
wednesday: doing revision papers and look through tutorials. memorise organic chem equations, revise periodicity and atomic structure
thursday afternn to night: practise maths
friday: maths and bio

the rest of the week, havent planned out yet. hopefully i can stick to schedule. at this rate, i can complete 2 rounds of revision and 1 round of looking through tuts/papers.

WHO'S THE MUGGER NOW??? MUAHAHA

2 more weeks, i wont be here.

whooh!

ok man! i realised that i can finish my revision after all! there's still time. and after wat mr ngoh told us, i'm so much more encouraged not to give up bio. and speaking of him, he played bball wif us. he, me and robert one team, and reiz and pubes. obvious reiz owned, but mr ngoh's pro i think he lost touch.

anyway i'm slacking now, listening to recordings from anniversary. sounds good i must say, got the live feel. not planning to do anything now, damn tired. tmr shall chiong

bye!

dead

8 more days to promos, and guess what? i'm not even half way revision!

and i dont think i'll touch the tutorials, which is rather risky, except for bio. i mean, they never come out with anything that we're familiar with.

here's my progress:
ECONS:
only 2/9 chapters done.

CHEM:
organic chem done, just need to memorise (leave to day before). stoichio's dead as usual. left chem bonding, periodicity, atomic structure, and gas laws (i'll probably skip it's easy)

BIO:
HAHA! BIO! sean calculated 479 pages of bio! can u believe it?
bio molecules, done, maybe except proteins, not very clear. enzymes done. mitosis, cancer done. transcription and translation done. virus and bacteria done. left with cell membrane, DNA, genome, and genetic variaton. HC sux! HC BIO SUX! so much of extra stuff that wouldnt be tested in As! after all, it's the As that matter! but get past promos first...

MATHS:
oh maths is just tonnes of practice. i'm dead for vectors and integration. sequences i'm still half clear about it. differentiation is not bad. MI rox! graphs, functions, inequalities should be easy. PnC i always get it wrong so it's ok lol.

so i figure out i would be able to promote. i expect, or rather, i'm aiming for a
C for econs, D for chem, E for bio, and C for maths.

i need a miracle! argh!

aftermath of anniversary

whoah! i slept the whole night so i didnt blog! ok here's what my thoughts are after hope's 15 anniversary, a super mega event at expo. u know it's a super large production. so many ppl are involved, so many props, so many MM, so many activities!

the feeling is great, knowing that you're called to play for this mega 3000ppl event at expo leh! dont play play! haha. ya the practises were tiring, time consuming, strict, fierce, but it was worth it at the end! although it wasnt 100% perfect due to technical stuff, stage fright, etc, i still think it was fun and the people still had a great time!

here's what happened the past 2 days:

15th september, 2006
I didnt go school as i was feeling sick. my flu was back, i had some kind of red eyes thing.
i reached expo at 3.30, a whooping 1 hour earlier, so i studied econs! speaking of study, 9 days to promos and i'm so dead! i need a miracle! hahaha!
and i chatted and got to know geoffrey (bassist) better. he's a really humble guy and can see how he still clings on to serving God in the ministry after sooo many years haha. and i talked to some other people i didnt talk much to before.
then whole run through ended pretty late at 11.30. fortunately, we were going to stay at Gwen's house. thank you Gwen for opening ur house up to the 3 of us! appreciate it a lot!
but we only left the place at 1am. before that, about 20+ guys were transporting the huge deco "HISTORY MAKER" to the stage. it was a beautiful sight, seeing the teamwork and effort and love in getting the job done. the pictures will show you why! can use for the next men's service! hehe. anyway, i've never felt such teamwork for God in my whole life. i just saw so many ppl like ants carrying a piece of food, and there were a few leaders who gave instructions. they weren't appointed to do so, they just did. so this made me feel this particular situation reminded me of the church. the deco is the church, and the people are supporting it. and without the people, the church would not exist. and without leaders, the people would not know what to do!
funny thing is, as they transported the thing, more people came to help, such as...ME! hehe. so yup can see this as more ppl joining the church too. HAHA.
great insight.

16th September, 2006
today was the big day. i was already feeling very nervous during the rehearsals. ok maybe not that nervous, but the smoke machine was killing me! it kept on spurting out tonnes and tonnes of carbon monoxide that smells so horrible! argh! i had carboxyhaemoglobin instead of oxyhaemoglobin! decreased oxygen in bloodstream! no wonder i felt faint! ;)
and the lights were super hot! wearing the 2 layers already made me sweat, in fact, wearing one already made me sweat. hahaha...
right on to the actual event. i saw most of the seats filled except for one column at the extreme left of the stage. other than that, i think the attendance was great! the atmosphere was there.
so we had the dance, then the music, then highest, then praise.
dance was great! jovin looks so cool with his hair! haha! i like the music and coordination and the steps! very nice.
for our music presentation, i think it was really good! from what i could hear, there were like no obvious mistakes! maybe there wasnt mistakes! hehe.
so the choir entered, and we sang highest. i think it was pretty good too. but the crowd werent spiced up yet. pastor jeff had to get them to lift up hands. :(
and now it was praise and worship. oh man, i was sooo nervous because i had to start 2 songs. and my fingers are so painful after playing time has come over and over again! hahaha. i think i screwed up some of the bending parts. crap. and the tempo was wrong because the choir and crowd were rushing the tempo and i tried to listen to the metronome. i think davin didnt hear the metronome too.
then the horror came. you are good. i think i forgot to switch off my distortion. then i combined it with acoustic channel. imagine how horrible it sounds like. i think the crowd was quite taken aback. i was shocked too. but fortunately i solved the problem after the first phrase. and to make things worse, the singers' voices became distorted and me and davin were shocked too. i think he went out of time because he was distracted by that. but the crowd still were getting excited.
fastforward until altar call. i think altar call was great! what pastor ben said was sooo true! if not for a vision and trust, i wouldnt be here at all, doing what i do. i would be some sianed out guy in my parent's church, week after week, longing to go home, not looking forward to the "God thing". and i would be playing those dumb death metal songs jamming away in clarke quay. indeed God has a plan for everyone, and that day when leon brought me, i'm sure he said, "i'm going to use Simon for a great purpose for the good of my kingdom". wow man, come to thing of it.
so i challenge every christian to have a goal or a vision for himself/herself. only with a vision we can remain here, and only with a vision we are able to stretch ourself to serve the kingdom and grow. join a ministry man! robert, ryan, LEON. join ushering or smth lah! :P it's good to serve in pastoral, but it's good to be in a ministry too!

and my vision for myself is to be an influencial musician who is able to minister and prophecy to the people, who is able to train a next generation of strong musicians, and to write beautiful and ministering PnW songs.

Amen. expo, 3000+ ppl, wow! getting there, but wat's next?

oh no

ok i just spent $75 at zara on this vest but it looks very very nice! for anniversary! i look stunning in it! HEHEh no lah. i'm sure brat pitt wore this in mr and mrs smith, but as meanie ruizhen said, "U DONT HAVE HIS BODY LAH" hahaha i wish i do...one day...one day...

PRIDE

Pride, is something that we should not be proud of. It is something that causes the downfall of many great people who should be proud of what they've done. Pride, is not being humble.

I've always thought of pride as something that has it good and bad, good being, you feel high and you feel like a king. Bad being everything else.

Why are people proud of things they've achieved? They think there's no one better? They think it's their own doings? They dont want to be humble? Well there're many lessons on pride and how it leads to the downfall of great people. One example i can think of is dear mr wise Solomon. He asked for wisdom and he got it and achieved many many great things. Truth is, he became proud, and didnt humble himself, thus his downfall in the end when he didnt turn back. The Israelites too.
2 Chronicles 7:14 "if my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land."

Yes indeed that's very true.

Why do i choose to write so formally tonight? I've been thinking of pride and my past. Truth is, i used to be a proud ass when i was young, dunno if it still applies hehe.
I remembered being one of the top students in my primary school class, and i would often despise others that did rather badly. I, that time felt that everyone was stupid and what they did was dumb and that i was a higher level than all of them. Who was i to judge? Who was i to be proud? I mean the brain came from God not me!
While i still struggle with pride, I still just sometimes stop, and just surrender everything to Him. After all He gave everything.
Sometimes when you think your the best in something, in a particular area in a particular place, you cant help but feel proud, that your the BEST and everyone sucks and should "ALL HAIL" you. That feeling sucks, you know you dont want it, but it just happens. But the fact is, why not just admit your not THE BEST and just move on, make friends with others better. The chinese proverb "one mountain is higher than another" EXCEPT MT EVEREST HAHAHA!. Ok serious, see I typing capitals at every sentence. Well the feeling of just surrendering, humbling yourself, and willingness to learn from others is just great. You realise how much more you can improve if you humble yourself and stop thinking you're totally the BEST. It works, instead of trying to supress the pride, why not just confront the pride? Go out and do something that you wouldnt do, something that helps you lower your pride, and just make you humble in whatever you do. Afterall, Jesus came down to die for a bunch of sinners like ME and YOU!

Pride, a very evil thing indeed. Hope i've instilled some guilt and some insights into people! haha..