Sunday, September 24, 2006

2 more days

2 more days to the start of promos. i'm not that worried, i'm looking forward to it, and get this whole thing over and done with.

here's my revision plan:

sunday night: i shall finish up bio and vectors by tonight.
monday: study econs, memorise everything, draw graphs, read tutorials, and look thru GP
tuesday night: start memorising periodicity and atomic structure
wednesday: doing revision papers and look through tutorials. memorise organic chem equations, revise periodicity and atomic structure
thursday afternn to night: practise maths
friday: maths and bio

the rest of the week, havent planned out yet. hopefully i can stick to schedule. at this rate, i can complete 2 rounds of revision and 1 round of looking through tuts/papers.

WHO'S THE MUGGER NOW??? MUAHAHA

2 more weeks, i wont be here.

Thursday, September 21, 2006

whooh!

ok man! i realised that i can finish my revision after all! there's still time. and after wat mr ngoh told us, i'm so much more encouraged not to give up bio. and speaking of him, he played bball wif us. he, me and robert one team, and reiz and pubes. obvious reiz owned, but mr ngoh's pro i think he lost touch.

anyway i'm slacking now, listening to recordings from anniversary. sounds good i must say, got the live feel. not planning to do anything now, damn tired. tmr shall chiong

bye!

Monday, September 18, 2006

dead

8 more days to promos, and guess what? i'm not even half way revision!

and i dont think i'll touch the tutorials, which is rather risky, except for bio. i mean, they never come out with anything that we're familiar with.

here's my progress:
ECONS:
only 2/9 chapters done.

CHEM:
organic chem done, just need to memorise (leave to day before). stoichio's dead as usual. left chem bonding, periodicity, atomic structure, and gas laws (i'll probably skip it's easy)

BIO:
HAHA! BIO! sean calculated 479 pages of bio! can u believe it?
bio molecules, done, maybe except proteins, not very clear. enzymes done. mitosis, cancer done. transcription and translation done. virus and bacteria done. left with cell membrane, DNA, genome, and genetic variaton. HC sux! HC BIO SUX! so much of extra stuff that wouldnt be tested in As! after all, it's the As that matter! but get past promos first...

MATHS:
oh maths is just tonnes of practice. i'm dead for vectors and integration. sequences i'm still half clear about it. differentiation is not bad. MI rox! graphs, functions, inequalities should be easy. PnC i always get it wrong so it's ok lol.

so i figure out i would be able to promote. i expect, or rather, i'm aiming for a
C for econs, D for chem, E for bio, and C for maths.

i need a miracle! argh!

Sunday, September 17, 2006

aftermath of anniversary

whoah! i slept the whole night so i didnt blog! ok here's what my thoughts are after hope's 15 anniversary, a super mega event at expo. u know it's a super large production. so many ppl are involved, so many props, so many MM, so many activities!

the feeling is great, knowing that you're called to play for this mega 3000ppl event at expo leh! dont play play! haha. ya the practises were tiring, time consuming, strict, fierce, but it was worth it at the end! although it wasnt 100% perfect due to technical stuff, stage fright, etc, i still think it was fun and the people still had a great time!

here's what happened the past 2 days:

15th september, 2006
I didnt go school as i was feeling sick. my flu was back, i had some kind of red eyes thing.
i reached expo at 3.30, a whooping 1 hour earlier, so i studied econs! speaking of study, 9 days to promos and i'm so dead! i need a miracle! hahaha!
and i chatted and got to know geoffrey (bassist) better. he's a really humble guy and can see how he still clings on to serving God in the ministry after sooo many years haha. and i talked to some other people i didnt talk much to before.
then whole run through ended pretty late at 11.30. fortunately, we were going to stay at Gwen's house. thank you Gwen for opening ur house up to the 3 of us! appreciate it a lot!
but we only left the place at 1am. before that, about 20+ guys were transporting the huge deco "HISTORY MAKER" to the stage. it was a beautiful sight, seeing the teamwork and effort and love in getting the job done. the pictures will show you why! can use for the next men's service! hehe. anyway, i've never felt such teamwork for God in my whole life. i just saw so many ppl like ants carrying a piece of food, and there were a few leaders who gave instructions. they weren't appointed to do so, they just did. so this made me feel this particular situation reminded me of the church. the deco is the church, and the people are supporting it. and without the people, the church would not exist. and without leaders, the people would not know what to do!
funny thing is, as they transported the thing, more people came to help, such as...ME! hehe. so yup can see this as more ppl joining the church too. HAHA.
great insight.

16th September, 2006
today was the big day. i was already feeling very nervous during the rehearsals. ok maybe not that nervous, but the smoke machine was killing me! it kept on spurting out tonnes and tonnes of carbon monoxide that smells so horrible! argh! i had carboxyhaemoglobin instead of oxyhaemoglobin! decreased oxygen in bloodstream! no wonder i felt faint! ;)
and the lights were super hot! wearing the 2 layers already made me sweat, in fact, wearing one already made me sweat. hahaha...
right on to the actual event. i saw most of the seats filled except for one column at the extreme left of the stage. other than that, i think the attendance was great! the atmosphere was there.
so we had the dance, then the music, then highest, then praise.
dance was great! jovin looks so cool with his hair! haha! i like the music and coordination and the steps! very nice.
for our music presentation, i think it was really good! from what i could hear, there were like no obvious mistakes! maybe there wasnt mistakes! hehe.
so the choir entered, and we sang highest. i think it was pretty good too. but the crowd werent spiced up yet. pastor jeff had to get them to lift up hands. :(
and now it was praise and worship. oh man, i was sooo nervous because i had to start 2 songs. and my fingers are so painful after playing time has come over and over again! hahaha. i think i screwed up some of the bending parts. crap. and the tempo was wrong because the choir and crowd were rushing the tempo and i tried to listen to the metronome. i think davin didnt hear the metronome too.
then the horror came. you are good. i think i forgot to switch off my distortion. then i combined it with acoustic channel. imagine how horrible it sounds like. i think the crowd was quite taken aback. i was shocked too. but fortunately i solved the problem after the first phrase. and to make things worse, the singers' voices became distorted and me and davin were shocked too. i think he went out of time because he was distracted by that. but the crowd still were getting excited.
fastforward until altar call. i think altar call was great! what pastor ben said was sooo true! if not for a vision and trust, i wouldnt be here at all, doing what i do. i would be some sianed out guy in my parent's church, week after week, longing to go home, not looking forward to the "God thing". and i would be playing those dumb death metal songs jamming away in clarke quay. indeed God has a plan for everyone, and that day when leon brought me, i'm sure he said, "i'm going to use Simon for a great purpose for the good of my kingdom". wow man, come to thing of it.
so i challenge every christian to have a goal or a vision for himself/herself. only with a vision we can remain here, and only with a vision we are able to stretch ourself to serve the kingdom and grow. join a ministry man! robert, ryan, LEON. join ushering or smth lah! :P it's good to serve in pastoral, but it's good to be in a ministry too!

and my vision for myself is to be an influencial musician who is able to minister and prophecy to the people, who is able to train a next generation of strong musicians, and to write beautiful and ministering PnW songs.

Amen. expo, 3000+ ppl, wow! getting there, but wat's next?

Saturday, September 09, 2006

oh no

ok i just spent $75 at zara on this vest but it looks very very nice! for anniversary! i look stunning in it! HEHEh no lah. i'm sure brat pitt wore this in mr and mrs smith, but as meanie ruizhen said, "U DONT HAVE HIS BODY LAH" hahaha i wish i do...one day...one day...

PRIDE

Pride, is something that we should not be proud of. It is something that causes the downfall of many great people who should be proud of what they've done. Pride, is not being humble.

I've always thought of pride as something that has it good and bad, good being, you feel high and you feel like a king. Bad being everything else.

Why are people proud of things they've achieved? They think there's no one better? They think it's their own doings? They dont want to be humble? Well there're many lessons on pride and how it leads to the downfall of great people. One example i can think of is dear mr wise Solomon. He asked for wisdom and he got it and achieved many many great things. Truth is, he became proud, and didnt humble himself, thus his downfall in the end when he didnt turn back. The Israelites too.
2 Chronicles 7:14 "if my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land."

Yes indeed that's very true.

Why do i choose to write so formally tonight? I've been thinking of pride and my past. Truth is, i used to be a proud ass when i was young, dunno if it still applies hehe.
I remembered being one of the top students in my primary school class, and i would often despise others that did rather badly. I, that time felt that everyone was stupid and what they did was dumb and that i was a higher level than all of them. Who was i to judge? Who was i to be proud? I mean the brain came from God not me!
While i still struggle with pride, I still just sometimes stop, and just surrender everything to Him. After all He gave everything.
Sometimes when you think your the best in something, in a particular area in a particular place, you cant help but feel proud, that your the BEST and everyone sucks and should "ALL HAIL" you. That feeling sucks, you know you dont want it, but it just happens. But the fact is, why not just admit your not THE BEST and just move on, make friends with others better. The chinese proverb "one mountain is higher than another" EXCEPT MT EVEREST HAHAHA!. Ok serious, see I typing capitals at every sentence. Well the feeling of just surrendering, humbling yourself, and willingness to learn from others is just great. You realise how much more you can improve if you humble yourself and stop thinking you're totally the BEST. It works, instead of trying to supress the pride, why not just confront the pride? Go out and do something that you wouldnt do, something that helps you lower your pride, and just make you humble in whatever you do. Afterall, Jesus came down to die for a bunch of sinners like ME and YOU!

Pride, a very evil thing indeed. Hope i've instilled some guilt and some insights into people! haha..

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

amen!

ok just had a real great day today! had a lousy mugging session but had a great night! metamorphosis concert! can see the excitement of all the new believers who have crossed over for eternity!

anyway it was awesome, the atomsphere, the spirit etc. although i was falling asleep during praying (oops, but i had headche :( ) it was still great! and thx to pastor shirley for encouraging us once again to work hard! i'm determined to study hard and get my As for A level next year! for promos, i'm aiming for a min. D, hope to get mostly Cs and Bs. i'm studying hard i'm studying hard!

and here's some encouragement to those who are feeling down, or are struggling with studies!

"till the spirit is poured upon us from on high, and the desert becomes a fertile field, and the fertile field seems like a forest." - Isaiah 33:15

everything that u do in the name of Christ will be multiplied greatly!

i was telling robert on the bus today, that sometimes when do great things for God, serving, ministry etc. God gives us small things, and we may be sad or disappointed, but time to come, he will give us great things. so he really will multiply everything we do, even if we attempt small or great things for him! so dont worry boy ur smart and there's still time to study!

and here's a little story:
i passed chem and maths! got C and a B! it's not about the grade, but it's about how God showed his faithfulness and how i claimed his promises. i remembered, for maths test, i didnt have time to study, had anniversary and service practices, so very tired, didnt study. but thank God the paper was rather easy and i claimed a B! not just that, didnt have much time to study for chem too, didnt understand concepts, but i got a C! yay!

and i realise as i study, i understand better and remember more! u see! it's really his faithfulness as he said he will help me, he really did!

ok i dun have a word for that because i forgot it! man should use a highlighter! but enjoy the one above!

"till the spirit is poured upon us from on high, and the desert becomes a fertile field, and the fertile field seems like a forest." - Isaiah 33:15

bye!

and now for dumb pix!

ok i realised my blog is so dull there's no pix! so here's some retarded pics taken over the past weeks!

no.1 dumb pic:


























ronald mcdonald really deserves a kick in his nuts! look at wat he's done to me! fat belly!

no.2 dumb pic:














ben posing for a punch from me!

no.3!















my fav drink! GREEN TEA! HAHAHA

ok that's it!

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

back to earth...

haha back to earth now. no more rich life in meritus mandarin eating good food. nvm will have more opportunities when dad comes back next time! hehehe...

ya and so i've been studying, but not much. went to esplanade library with ck, robert, yt and ky. yc came later. we met uchi there! so skinny lah u dare wear sleeveless HAHAH! so proud of myself! studied from 11 to 5.30! whoah! hehe...i concentrated damn well man! so i've finished carbonyl and alcohol tut! and tried to study meiosis. still lots more to go there's no time! but u noe every year's the same, we study way last minute, with lots of topics, in the end, still never fail! hehe...

ok i'm tired of blogging. bye!

Friday, September 01, 2006

ah it feels good to be rich for a while

whooh as i type i'm lying back and relaxing in a NICE FIVE STAR MANDARIN HOTEL. WHOOH! how often do u get to relax in a 5 star hotel shaking leg and watching a nice high quality plasma TV? did i mention the lovely bathroom? everything is sooo beautiful and nicely in place! i think all singapore hotels are great! from meridien, to shangri la, to hyatt and to mandarin! how cool! enjoy these benefits from my dad! hahaha

anyway i love holidays. especially during exam time. u dont go school, u take ur time to mug, u mug outside with frens, and u can catch up wif ur tuts and notes! how nice!

i went to NUS central library today, whoah! SUPER COOL AND QUIET! it's like
u fart from a mile away, u can hear it! HAHAHA! that shows how quiet it is! anyway, must study there more! the food is uber cheap and great! haha lots of pretty girls too! :D

ok i shall be a good boy and start my full blast mugging this week! bye!