Sunday, August 17, 2008

off

i'm feeling rather unfocused at the moment. my brain's in a midst of confusion. there're thoughts just having war with one another.

i'm confused at what i should do with my life. it's just plain meaningless and boring everyday in camp and when i'm at home. i know it shouldnt be the case cos i'm a christian, but then again it's not about life purpose i'm confused with, it's just a stage of life i'm uncertain of what i should do.

i want to go back to school. army's really wasting my time.

thank you!

thanks everyone who wished me happy 19th and who celebrated/will celebrate with me. actually being 19 doesnt feel as good as being 18, cos i guess it doesnt really matter. at least at 18 u feel older, more mature, can buy alcohol, cigarettes, watch m18, but that's not the point.

i'm looking forward to my 21st birthday, cos that would mean i've started school and i've ORDed.

thanks to all those who gave me stuff/will give me stuff. *ahem*

i feel loved.

Saturday, August 09, 2008

national day!

it's the 43rd birthday of singapore!

and there's a very special occassion coming up soon, in 6 days' time! hmmmm, i wonder what it is?

Tuesday, August 05, 2008

The Story of the Goldfish

today in camp, we had something exciting! we decided to pool our money together to buy a couple of fishes and put them in this fish tank that was lying around. each of us contributed about $2 to buy 2 big packets of goldfish, one packet contained super tiny goldfish and the other contained normal sized ones.

and so God sort of spoke to me in a cute way through these little aquatic creatures as we poured them into the tank. here's the inspirational story of the goldfish, written by me!

THE STORY OF THE GOLDFISH

Once upon a time, there lived a little goldfish in a little bowl in a little fish shop. This little goldfish was sick of staying in that little bowl, and he was a very sad goldfish. He longed to see what the world was like, instead of being trapped in a little bowl.

One day, a man walked into the shop and wanted to buy a fish. In this fish shop, there were many different kinds of beautiful fish, all of different colour, shapes and sizes. However, at the corner of the shop, stood the little bowl containing the little goldfish.

The man walked over to that goldfish, and noticed that it had a flaw - it's tail fin had been torned.
Immediately, he bought that goldfish, despite having seen all the other beautiful fish.

Upon reaching home, the man decided to place the goldfish in his huge aqaurium, beautifully decorated with gravel, rocks and water plants. He took a fish net and tried to scoop the goldfish up.

As the goldfish saw the net coming towards his way, he panicked and tried to swim away. It was really hard to try to coax the little fella into the net, and into the tank.

So the man tried a different way. This time, he lowered the bowl half way into the tank so that the goldfish could swim out. However, the poor little goldfish was afraid of what was in the tank, so he kept swimming towards the base of the bowl.

The man sighed, and said, "Why won't you be courageous and step out into my tank? Oh well, I will have to do this!". After he said that, he poured the contents of the bowl right into the tank, and the goldfish dropped into it.

As soon as the little goldfish entered the majestic looking fish tank, he was so amazed! He had never seen anything like it before.

The man smiled and said, "I told you so! You could have trusted me."

ok that concludes my little short story. a little connie, but while pouring out the fishes today, i saw them frantically trying to swim away from the tank and pack into the packet. kinda dumb right? swim away from the tank?! hahaha! but here's the good part:

Christians, some of us are like that little goldfish. we all have flaws like his little tail fin. we long to be used by God, and we long to be part of his perfect plan for us. however, here's the sad part. Sometimes, we don't trust God enough, and we long to go back to our comfort zone the moment things get rough.

the little goldfish couldn't bear to leave his bowl to enter into the tank the moment he encountered threats, obstacles and struggles. sometimes we are like that too. we can't bear to leave our own small bowl and venture into the great plan God has for us the moment we find that things aren't going right!

as a result, sometimes God has to give us a push, or maybe a reminder or a miracle, to show us a glimpse of his perfect plan for us. like that goldfish, we lack faith, we rely on our own strengths, and we dont trust our master. however, once we enter into the "tank" he has for us, we will then be able to see how awesome and cool his plan is for us!

once we received his plan for us, God smiles and says, "I told you so! You could have trusted me."

ok that's it! heh.

Monday, August 04, 2008

Simon the bangla worker

Simon has become a bangla worker, a maid and a cleaner. why?

we shifted so many big and heavy cupboards, drawers, tables, and partitions from rooms to rooms for the past week. we even had to do cementing of tiles, and we will be painting the walls tmr!

and i became a maid, mopping the floor, sweeping, cleaning, laying bedsheets etc. just that i have no official employer except the government. hehe.

but i guess all these "saikang" and extra work helps me be more useful in cleaning, so i'm basically an expert in house cleaning. i remember spring cleaning my room after my BMT, it was soooo nice to look at! but now it's back to the pig sty it used to be during A levels. oh wells! men werent created to do housework! HAHA! but nonetheless my wife will be so blessed cos i can do it! :P

i'm starting my driving lessons this wed! finally! after passing my BTT last year end october, and after waiting for for 5 months after BMT. oh well, hopefully i can claim my license and the right to my car. yes i have a car! but it belongs to my parents oh well...

1.5 years to ORD! 1 or 2 more months to corporal! haiz...