Sunday, October 29, 2006

simon ephraim

whooh! i'm officially married to Christ! i'm now called

SIMON EPHRAIM TAN YONG SHENG

wat a mouth full! but it was really exciting today. although this decision was rather last minute, i still thank God for it! at least i knew i'm ready!

so i played for adults service today. oh man the atmosphere is really really different from the youth. very scary, very solemn. but the ppl are still praising and worshipping the king. yup. cool man. i bet the service was an eye opener to them. new stuff, youth incorporated. IT FEELS GREAT TO BE YOUNG!

ok so i admit i was dozing off in sermon. not because pastor ben is boring. i love his sermons, full of conviction and meaning. i fall asleep because i always do, when i'm on duty. sure fall asleep. oh man now coffee doesnt work!

baptism pics! only got 2 from my phone

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

baptism

yay going for water bap this sunday! still deciding on my name though. the registration was soo last minute. shall work on my testimony soon.

Sunday, October 22, 2006

sorry!

sorry i never blog for 11 days! been busy with PW and stuff...
anyway i took lots of pics with my phone!















top left: our noticeboard for tkd! i'm proud of it!
top right: guys night out at cine e2max!
bottom left: our cute little tkd toy!
bottom right: free milo whooh!

openhouse was sian but quite cool because i played a prominent role in doing the sound! :D and i'm so happy to see our batch putting up a good show! tkd rocks! and kicks! but i ended up sleeping during the long long break hehe

we wanted to watch stay alive, on a friday night. but we realised that we should have bought tickets way earlier because the tickets were sold out when we were there like 1/2hour before. so we ended up playing some xbox and lan of 5 comps in e2max. reasonable price i must say.

ytd's service was great! everyone improved after last week's evaluation! i must say the crowd was very excited and God visited and gave us surprises again! hehe. after service we went to esplanade. luckily i went with them, or i would have missed this super cool and zai jazz band! oh man they're sooo damn pro! jazz is sooo hard to play and they can do it well! whooh inspiration inspiration! hehe

well that's it! holidays are coming, and i need to study hard. got a freaking SEEEC (see ethan chong) for my overall. i cant complain much because i was sooo close to retaining but God's grace saw me through! and to all those that didnt do too well: dont worry too much, there's still As, the final mark. just work harder next year! we can do it!

yup ok bye!

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

fun fun fun!

whooh! today went to watch Rob-b-hood at PS with ck, rob, ivan, toon, yuting and yingchern.
it's damn nice show! so funny and the BABY IS SOOOOOOOO CUTE LAH! makes me want to have kids next time! super cute! the eyes so huge and so smiley! hahaha

here some pics with my new phone!





















and sorry i just had to take a pic of that balding guy in front of us! hahaha! took it secretly! imagine myself being like that 40 years down the road! but he isnt that old. 40+ i think?

and the last pic i drew it when i was bored. reminds me of someone! so cute! :D

Thursday, October 05, 2006

freedom!

yay exams are over! wat's to come, i'm very afraid and shall not elaborate.

anyway, just got a new phone! sony ericsson 750i! it's still charging so havent explore yet :(

finally, got a good phone (but rather old model) that can take pics and upload to come. well i'm simple person, hence simpleone89, so i shant need a complex phone. can sms and call and take pix can liao! :)

Sunday, September 24, 2006

2 more days

2 more days to the start of promos. i'm not that worried, i'm looking forward to it, and get this whole thing over and done with.

here's my revision plan:

sunday night: i shall finish up bio and vectors by tonight.
monday: study econs, memorise everything, draw graphs, read tutorials, and look thru GP
tuesday night: start memorising periodicity and atomic structure
wednesday: doing revision papers and look through tutorials. memorise organic chem equations, revise periodicity and atomic structure
thursday afternn to night: practise maths
friday: maths and bio

the rest of the week, havent planned out yet. hopefully i can stick to schedule. at this rate, i can complete 2 rounds of revision and 1 round of looking through tuts/papers.

WHO'S THE MUGGER NOW??? MUAHAHA

2 more weeks, i wont be here.

Thursday, September 21, 2006

whooh!

ok man! i realised that i can finish my revision after all! there's still time. and after wat mr ngoh told us, i'm so much more encouraged not to give up bio. and speaking of him, he played bball wif us. he, me and robert one team, and reiz and pubes. obvious reiz owned, but mr ngoh's pro i think he lost touch.

anyway i'm slacking now, listening to recordings from anniversary. sounds good i must say, got the live feel. not planning to do anything now, damn tired. tmr shall chiong

bye!

Monday, September 18, 2006

dead

8 more days to promos, and guess what? i'm not even half way revision!

and i dont think i'll touch the tutorials, which is rather risky, except for bio. i mean, they never come out with anything that we're familiar with.

here's my progress:
ECONS:
only 2/9 chapters done.

CHEM:
organic chem done, just need to memorise (leave to day before). stoichio's dead as usual. left chem bonding, periodicity, atomic structure, and gas laws (i'll probably skip it's easy)

BIO:
HAHA! BIO! sean calculated 479 pages of bio! can u believe it?
bio molecules, done, maybe except proteins, not very clear. enzymes done. mitosis, cancer done. transcription and translation done. virus and bacteria done. left with cell membrane, DNA, genome, and genetic variaton. HC sux! HC BIO SUX! so much of extra stuff that wouldnt be tested in As! after all, it's the As that matter! but get past promos first...

MATHS:
oh maths is just tonnes of practice. i'm dead for vectors and integration. sequences i'm still half clear about it. differentiation is not bad. MI rox! graphs, functions, inequalities should be easy. PnC i always get it wrong so it's ok lol.

so i figure out i would be able to promote. i expect, or rather, i'm aiming for a
C for econs, D for chem, E for bio, and C for maths.

i need a miracle! argh!

Sunday, September 17, 2006

aftermath of anniversary

whoah! i slept the whole night so i didnt blog! ok here's what my thoughts are after hope's 15 anniversary, a super mega event at expo. u know it's a super large production. so many ppl are involved, so many props, so many MM, so many activities!

the feeling is great, knowing that you're called to play for this mega 3000ppl event at expo leh! dont play play! haha. ya the practises were tiring, time consuming, strict, fierce, but it was worth it at the end! although it wasnt 100% perfect due to technical stuff, stage fright, etc, i still think it was fun and the people still had a great time!

here's what happened the past 2 days:

15th september, 2006
I didnt go school as i was feeling sick. my flu was back, i had some kind of red eyes thing.
i reached expo at 3.30, a whooping 1 hour earlier, so i studied econs! speaking of study, 9 days to promos and i'm so dead! i need a miracle! hahaha!
and i chatted and got to know geoffrey (bassist) better. he's a really humble guy and can see how he still clings on to serving God in the ministry after sooo many years haha. and i talked to some other people i didnt talk much to before.
then whole run through ended pretty late at 11.30. fortunately, we were going to stay at Gwen's house. thank you Gwen for opening ur house up to the 3 of us! appreciate it a lot!
but we only left the place at 1am. before that, about 20+ guys were transporting the huge deco "HISTORY MAKER" to the stage. it was a beautiful sight, seeing the teamwork and effort and love in getting the job done. the pictures will show you why! can use for the next men's service! hehe. anyway, i've never felt such teamwork for God in my whole life. i just saw so many ppl like ants carrying a piece of food, and there were a few leaders who gave instructions. they weren't appointed to do so, they just did. so this made me feel this particular situation reminded me of the church. the deco is the church, and the people are supporting it. and without the people, the church would not exist. and without leaders, the people would not know what to do!
funny thing is, as they transported the thing, more people came to help, such as...ME! hehe. so yup can see this as more ppl joining the church too. HAHA.
great insight.

16th September, 2006
today was the big day. i was already feeling very nervous during the rehearsals. ok maybe not that nervous, but the smoke machine was killing me! it kept on spurting out tonnes and tonnes of carbon monoxide that smells so horrible! argh! i had carboxyhaemoglobin instead of oxyhaemoglobin! decreased oxygen in bloodstream! no wonder i felt faint! ;)
and the lights were super hot! wearing the 2 layers already made me sweat, in fact, wearing one already made me sweat. hahaha...
right on to the actual event. i saw most of the seats filled except for one column at the extreme left of the stage. other than that, i think the attendance was great! the atmosphere was there.
so we had the dance, then the music, then highest, then praise.
dance was great! jovin looks so cool with his hair! haha! i like the music and coordination and the steps! very nice.
for our music presentation, i think it was really good! from what i could hear, there were like no obvious mistakes! maybe there wasnt mistakes! hehe.
so the choir entered, and we sang highest. i think it was pretty good too. but the crowd werent spiced up yet. pastor jeff had to get them to lift up hands. :(
and now it was praise and worship. oh man, i was sooo nervous because i had to start 2 songs. and my fingers are so painful after playing time has come over and over again! hahaha. i think i screwed up some of the bending parts. crap. and the tempo was wrong because the choir and crowd were rushing the tempo and i tried to listen to the metronome. i think davin didnt hear the metronome too.
then the horror came. you are good. i think i forgot to switch off my distortion. then i combined it with acoustic channel. imagine how horrible it sounds like. i think the crowd was quite taken aback. i was shocked too. but fortunately i solved the problem after the first phrase. and to make things worse, the singers' voices became distorted and me and davin were shocked too. i think he went out of time because he was distracted by that. but the crowd still were getting excited.
fastforward until altar call. i think altar call was great! what pastor ben said was sooo true! if not for a vision and trust, i wouldnt be here at all, doing what i do. i would be some sianed out guy in my parent's church, week after week, longing to go home, not looking forward to the "God thing". and i would be playing those dumb death metal songs jamming away in clarke quay. indeed God has a plan for everyone, and that day when leon brought me, i'm sure he said, "i'm going to use Simon for a great purpose for the good of my kingdom". wow man, come to thing of it.
so i challenge every christian to have a goal or a vision for himself/herself. only with a vision we can remain here, and only with a vision we are able to stretch ourself to serve the kingdom and grow. join a ministry man! robert, ryan, LEON. join ushering or smth lah! :P it's good to serve in pastoral, but it's good to be in a ministry too!

and my vision for myself is to be an influencial musician who is able to minister and prophecy to the people, who is able to train a next generation of strong musicians, and to write beautiful and ministering PnW songs.

Amen. expo, 3000+ ppl, wow! getting there, but wat's next?

Saturday, September 09, 2006

oh no

ok i just spent $75 at zara on this vest but it looks very very nice! for anniversary! i look stunning in it! HEHEh no lah. i'm sure brat pitt wore this in mr and mrs smith, but as meanie ruizhen said, "U DONT HAVE HIS BODY LAH" hahaha i wish i do...one day...one day...

PRIDE

Pride, is something that we should not be proud of. It is something that causes the downfall of many great people who should be proud of what they've done. Pride, is not being humble.

I've always thought of pride as something that has it good and bad, good being, you feel high and you feel like a king. Bad being everything else.

Why are people proud of things they've achieved? They think there's no one better? They think it's their own doings? They dont want to be humble? Well there're many lessons on pride and how it leads to the downfall of great people. One example i can think of is dear mr wise Solomon. He asked for wisdom and he got it and achieved many many great things. Truth is, he became proud, and didnt humble himself, thus his downfall in the end when he didnt turn back. The Israelites too.
2 Chronicles 7:14 "if my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land."

Yes indeed that's very true.

Why do i choose to write so formally tonight? I've been thinking of pride and my past. Truth is, i used to be a proud ass when i was young, dunno if it still applies hehe.
I remembered being one of the top students in my primary school class, and i would often despise others that did rather badly. I, that time felt that everyone was stupid and what they did was dumb and that i was a higher level than all of them. Who was i to judge? Who was i to be proud? I mean the brain came from God not me!
While i still struggle with pride, I still just sometimes stop, and just surrender everything to Him. After all He gave everything.
Sometimes when you think your the best in something, in a particular area in a particular place, you cant help but feel proud, that your the BEST and everyone sucks and should "ALL HAIL" you. That feeling sucks, you know you dont want it, but it just happens. But the fact is, why not just admit your not THE BEST and just move on, make friends with others better. The chinese proverb "one mountain is higher than another" EXCEPT MT EVEREST HAHAHA!. Ok serious, see I typing capitals at every sentence. Well the feeling of just surrendering, humbling yourself, and willingness to learn from others is just great. You realise how much more you can improve if you humble yourself and stop thinking you're totally the BEST. It works, instead of trying to supress the pride, why not just confront the pride? Go out and do something that you wouldnt do, something that helps you lower your pride, and just make you humble in whatever you do. Afterall, Jesus came down to die for a bunch of sinners like ME and YOU!

Pride, a very evil thing indeed. Hope i've instilled some guilt and some insights into people! haha..

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

amen!

ok just had a real great day today! had a lousy mugging session but had a great night! metamorphosis concert! can see the excitement of all the new believers who have crossed over for eternity!

anyway it was awesome, the atomsphere, the spirit etc. although i was falling asleep during praying (oops, but i had headche :( ) it was still great! and thx to pastor shirley for encouraging us once again to work hard! i'm determined to study hard and get my As for A level next year! for promos, i'm aiming for a min. D, hope to get mostly Cs and Bs. i'm studying hard i'm studying hard!

and here's some encouragement to those who are feeling down, or are struggling with studies!

"till the spirit is poured upon us from on high, and the desert becomes a fertile field, and the fertile field seems like a forest." - Isaiah 33:15

everything that u do in the name of Christ will be multiplied greatly!

i was telling robert on the bus today, that sometimes when do great things for God, serving, ministry etc. God gives us small things, and we may be sad or disappointed, but time to come, he will give us great things. so he really will multiply everything we do, even if we attempt small or great things for him! so dont worry boy ur smart and there's still time to study!

and here's a little story:
i passed chem and maths! got C and a B! it's not about the grade, but it's about how God showed his faithfulness and how i claimed his promises. i remembered, for maths test, i didnt have time to study, had anniversary and service practices, so very tired, didnt study. but thank God the paper was rather easy and i claimed a B! not just that, didnt have much time to study for chem too, didnt understand concepts, but i got a C! yay!

and i realise as i study, i understand better and remember more! u see! it's really his faithfulness as he said he will help me, he really did!

ok i dun have a word for that because i forgot it! man should use a highlighter! but enjoy the one above!

"till the spirit is poured upon us from on high, and the desert becomes a fertile field, and the fertile field seems like a forest." - Isaiah 33:15

bye!

and now for dumb pix!

ok i realised my blog is so dull there's no pix! so here's some retarded pics taken over the past weeks!

no.1 dumb pic:


























ronald mcdonald really deserves a kick in his nuts! look at wat he's done to me! fat belly!

no.2 dumb pic:














ben posing for a punch from me!

no.3!















my fav drink! GREEN TEA! HAHAHA

ok that's it!

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

back to earth...

haha back to earth now. no more rich life in meritus mandarin eating good food. nvm will have more opportunities when dad comes back next time! hehehe...

ya and so i've been studying, but not much. went to esplanade library with ck, robert, yt and ky. yc came later. we met uchi there! so skinny lah u dare wear sleeveless HAHAH! so proud of myself! studied from 11 to 5.30! whoah! hehe...i concentrated damn well man! so i've finished carbonyl and alcohol tut! and tried to study meiosis. still lots more to go there's no time! but u noe every year's the same, we study way last minute, with lots of topics, in the end, still never fail! hehe...

ok i'm tired of blogging. bye!

Friday, September 01, 2006

ah it feels good to be rich for a while

whooh as i type i'm lying back and relaxing in a NICE FIVE STAR MANDARIN HOTEL. WHOOH! how often do u get to relax in a 5 star hotel shaking leg and watching a nice high quality plasma TV? did i mention the lovely bathroom? everything is sooo beautiful and nicely in place! i think all singapore hotels are great! from meridien, to shangri la, to hyatt and to mandarin! how cool! enjoy these benefits from my dad! hahaha

anyway i love holidays. especially during exam time. u dont go school, u take ur time to mug, u mug outside with frens, and u can catch up wif ur tuts and notes! how nice!

i went to NUS central library today, whoah! SUPER COOL AND QUIET! it's like
u fart from a mile away, u can hear it! HAHAHA! that shows how quiet it is! anyway, must study there more! the food is uber cheap and great! haha lots of pretty girls too! :D

ok i shall be a good boy and start my full blast mugging this week! bye!

Thursday, August 24, 2006

yay!

haha! PW is finally over for now! gosh was damn tired! and i need to catch up with my tutorials! gonna be hell next week, econs timed assignment and chem test! sian lah and i havent started my revision. too much things going on lah, PW, class test, lecture test etc.

today was a very sian day in school, as usual all thursdays are like that. but i slept the whole GP and bio tutorials. hehe.

we didnt have PE because michael wont didnt come, but we still played bball! whooh! we played full court with an extended team, and it was damn tiring. i only scored 2 goals. i'm damn lousy but reihorng is coaching me! he's so pro!

and guess what? i'm training now! under the coaching and advice of mr mak chan keet, i'm going to attempt to build my body! hard to believe but i'm trying! need to get rid of this bag of bones and make them a bag of potatoes! hehe...and uchi is like a bag of bones too! " "

and yesterday, while going home, i did a stupid, unintentional and embarrassing thing. my bus suddenly came, then i realised and flagged it while running. i didnt noe my hand was near the metal poles, so i still ran, and BANG! my arm whacked the pole lah! damn pain! i was like "ARH! SHIT SHIT!" then i think ppl were laughing at me! so embarrassing! but fortunately managed to catch the bus hehe

and there was another embarrassing moment on the MRT last year. when i was waving goodbye to my pals, i stood at the door, peak hour mah. then i waving bye bye, then the stupid door closed on me!
it slammed right into my face and hit my specs. luckily i moved back quickly! damn pain lah! so many ppl laughing at me!

argh, embarrassing moments! hehe

Sunday, August 20, 2006

the waste is cleared and flushed down the toilet bowl

YES! the storm's gone, the shit is flushed! everything is back to normal!

sorry if i sounded too gloomy (DAMN GRANDPA JUST FARTED AGAIN DAMN SMELLY!) or too dark or trying to draw attention in my previous post, but i feel that a blog is smth that we write out our feelings. i'm human ok!

but right now i'm ok, back to my strong, fit, healthy, cheerful, happy, jovial, cute self again! did i say cute? HAHA!

so sorry to those who worried but i'm recharged once again after much talking and sharing with jerel and others. thx guys really needed it!

now i'm not sooo tired, and coping well wif my studies now! mauahaha!

bye!

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

shit happens

there's lot of shit going on in my life now i just want to KO and just drop down dead on the floor! it's a re-enactment of what happened 3 weeks ago when i was about to KO again!

there's maths test this friday, i can say i studied for differentiation and integration but i noe i'm going to fail. 100% fail. why? because i suck i'm a dumb piece of shit everytime i study and try my best i still come back with crap! sometimes i ask myself why too! why the hell am i in HC? i want to cry and just...just...ARGH!

monday was anni prac, came home 12.30am, tues was WAM night, came home 11, studied till 12.30, today's wed, came home at 7pm, chionged EOM, prepared for music prac. tmr has music prac, will reach home 11, no time to study.
CONCLUSION: i will fail my maths no matter what!

sometimes i wonder, am i serving for God or has it gradually become a chore, a duty? something that u'll go "AIYA sian la! go la quickly come back". deep down it's still something that i do for the one who loves me. but sometimes when the going gets tough, all u can say is "WHY? wat's happening?"

besides my tired self (i slept for 5hours consectively 3 days, sleep in lectures blah blah), he had to make it worse by like giving me shit, too much testing! i cant take it!

like wat happened yesterday, on my bday. my mom called me to wish me happy bday, i cried because i miss her. GUESS WAT? at night, after a few hours, she called me all the way from china just to scold me the same shit that i have been receiving for the past few months! i mean, come on! i'm 17 i noe wat to do just trust me i'm trying very hard ok!
i apologised, but i still feel that certain things are beyond my reach, that wat makes me want to break down and cry.

i'm excited to minister to souls and gain rewards, but at the same time i just cannot be recharged and do the work of a normal student. i mean, all my other classmates have no church commitment? i still have my music theory to study for man! when i joined the ministry, i noe these thigns will come, i'm excited for these, i want them, i want to see how i can overcome them. but i dunno why some ppl think it's easy to come home at 11pm, not feeling sleepy after a shit day of school, sit down and study for 2 hours. i mean, playing music, so wat? so wat? it's not easy doing a task of that! as much as i want to study, i just cant because sometimes i just really cant do it. i noe a student is meant to study, and a musician to play, wat about a mix of both? cant do both?

and guess wat? i dun even have time for myself. i dun watch TV, i dun play computer games, i dun learn my crazy rock guitar songs, i dun even go out after church to chill. what do i do? i try to spend my time studying. u see! i TRY TO STUDY! i WANT TO STUDY! oh man i'm just going to break down one day, all this things going on...

but God works for the good of those who love Him. am i really starting to treat service as a chore? is this a period of testing, or is this a time i should take a long long break and recharge? or will i even backslide? scary man, these kind of thoughts that i have, but it's human nature after all.

and to add on to the shit, my family's not in Singapore, i'm staying with my aunt, my grandma's a real irritating old woman who keeps asking about everything and anything and IS SOOO DAMN DEAF. i mean, get a hearing aid!

i noe this post seems damn whiny, complainy, bitchy, meany, watever la. i'm just penning down my thoughts about all the shit that's going on this week, and the weeks to come, and in future. i just want to get out of it. i dun want to backslide, i dun want to retain.

oh yes i just remembered, i may want to drop a subject next year. i cant take it anymore! i noe one friend who wants to drop too. hmmm...

but anyway, on a lighter, happier note, i thank all those who remembered my bday! i'm one more year from becoming 18! thx for the celebrations, the songs, the cards, the gifts etc! i appreciate it! but for now, i have to take another 5hours to recharge my batteries again.

bye!

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

It's party time!

WHOOH! I'M FINALLY 17! WISH ME HAPPY BDAY QUICK!

and to Chris, sorry i forgot to include ur pubic name! i mean, i hate this kind of things, because i will sure forget someone and i remembered putting ur name but it disappeared! :O did u hide it in ur hair?

anyway, yesterday was crap! woke up ONE HOUR late! i set the alarm clock at 6.40 instead of 5.40! wah panic sia! but took a cab and reached at 7.15 just nice!
things that seem bad turn out good! siva didnt see us for ponning 15min of his BORING PW lesson! whew!

and my pedalboard looks damn good and sounds damn good! had anni prac just now, my new SD1 modded 808 just sooo rocks! i'm starting to diss the distortion unit on my J&H pedal! hmmm should i sell? get a gt2! lol

tmr's a busy day, i mean, later, lol. sooo many ppl wished me happy bday that i cant count! lemme try to remember...
ck, robert, toon, samuel, jerel, daniel, yao guo, small gwen, jiayi, jiemin, jolene, yk, yushu, yueqi, yuting, ah crap! mental block! many many la! hahaha and if u havent, FEEL GUILTY! MUAHAHAH

ok i shall go sleep now! bye!

Friday, August 11, 2006

Little did i noe...

today is the last night with my mom and my younger sis. sadly, 4mths have passed since my dad left. i remember vividly the times we had with my dad, but sadly, the times i shared wif my mom and my younger sis are more. that's make it harder to leave and say goodbye.

oh well, i may seem like a jovial person, funny, cracking jokes, but deep down i'm actually a very serious person, who puts others before him. i dont want to see my mom suffer in a foreign land, but i noe for sure that there's someone looking down on us, watching us sleep, blessing us every moment. He is God, no doubt, the creator of the heavens and the earth.

so i would like to thank these ppl in advance for their support in rough times, and as the bible says, do not worry about tmr, let tmr worry about itself. i wont worry i'm sure, because the lord is my shepherd, He leads me beside quiet waters, and His staff and rod comfort me as i walk thru the shadow of the valley of death! it's very comforting, my Father in heaven. ok havent thank yet, but i would like to thank:
my beloved YWAM CG, and jerel my shepherd
my beloved ex-HC CG, for being with me in school
my pals, leon, sam, ryan and robert in church
my good frens in class, toon, ck, ivan, reiz, robert
my sec4 frens, hongyi, yushu, tengen, lenard, wilson, yingcheng, boon, feng, chunrui etc sorry if i forget ur name it's so many!
all those who love me and want me to be strong!

well i'm sure this post is a short one, but i'll blog more i promise. bye!